This is some girly shit
But it is what it is. I know I just get lonely when it’s cold and rainy, but I’d really like a girl to enjoy these kind of evenings with. Even platonically- though I think that’s impossible. If I found the right girl, hell, I’d probably date her if she’d have me. I don’t want the stress that all those shitty high school relationships put on things. But seeing all my college friends having shitty college relationships makes me want to just find a girl to hold hands with. Maybe the whole ideals and fears of dating will last me until the day I ask a girl to marry me. Who knows. I just really hate not having like that “one” person that brightens my day that I could cuddle up and watch the office and cartoons with her. Maybe I’m too picky. But I want a girl that’ll put up with me and my childish nature. But also a girl that isn’t so independent that she hates me sticking up for her or helping her. I probably won’t date a girl until I find that. I hope I keep up with that mindset. God help me.
